I like this, a lot. I used to hate it when someone would take all that I was feeling and say it better & funnier than I could, but now I just say YES! really loudly (partially due to the relief of no longer needing to try & corral my scattered feelings and rope them into meaning) then watch/read it over & over & over until it gets my ass in gear to do something.

A transcript is here by knitmeapony. There’s not one thing in that doesn’t resonate with my yeah-I’m-fifty-so-now-what-do-I-do inner dialogue.

Off to feed my FILDI oranges, go roller skating and then maybe write some shit down. To sideline the time-suck of repetitively hitting refresh in a particularly unattractive OCD fashion, I’m pulling the plug on social media like Facebook, Twitter and Google+ for a bit, including all notifications.

Are blogs social media?

Don’t care, not giving them up.

You know where to find me if anything cool happens.


What’s in my bag (idea ganked from my friend Stephanie’s blog)

The bag:

I’ve been using this brown leather Roots backpack lately. Not the most waterproof of things, but it’s well made and was free.

Inside the bag:


  • Asus netbook & case – mostly for school, but for writing too
  • Sony eReader – love this device! Just finishing 1Q84 by Murakami. Next up is Cloud Atlas.
  • cheap black leather wallet – parts of the interior are patched with black electrical tape. Perhaps it’s time to think of getting a new one.
  • knitting bag – always have a small and easy project with me. Currently working on a pair of silk/angora hand warmers that I plan to add some Arduino Lilypad electronics to. Perfect project for waiting rooms and meetings.
  • Moleskine – some writing needs to be done by hand. It comes from a different place when it’s handwritten as opposed to typed and word processed.
  • Extra glasses. Yes, I carry two pairs of glasses with me always, progressives for walking around and mid-range for working on the computer.
  • Red embroidered bag – gift from a coworker who brought it from Iran. It’s the perfect size for my iPod shuffle & ear buds
  • POW! Change purse – acquired in our travels. I think I picked it up in a coffee shop in Ouray, Colorado.
  • Lip Medex.
  • Sleeping cat pillbox, filled with Aleve, Advil, Tylenol, Gravol and Midol. I learned to carry it with me always after the knee injury.
  • iPhone. The faux cassette case amuses me greatly.
  • Sharpie pen. Best journaling/writing pen ever, IMHO.
  • Credit card USB and Starbucks gift card. Found them rattling around the bottom of the pack; no idea what’s on them.
  • House keys
  • Work keys with leopard spot lanyard and backup USB

unChristmas is over for another year

We did another unChristmas this year, since last year’s was such a success, i.e. I didn’t cry during the holidays at all. I kept trying to hold onto the past. I don’t have children, all my family are gone or far away, Keith truly doesn’t care one way or the other, and Christmas just doesn’t work the way I want it to with me trying to keep the family traditions alive. So we left the boxes with the decorations in the storage locker, stayed out of malls and made only one foray to the grocery store.

There were nods to former holidays. I made a batch of my Mum’s nuts & bolts. I started unChristmas Day with a healthy shot of Drambuie in my coffee the way my Dad always did. I watched Charlie Brown’s Christmas and How The Grinch Stole Christmas remembering all the times I watched them with my brother, curled up on the couch in the rec room downstairs. And I watched Nightmare Before Christmas for no other reason that because I like it.

We visited family, and I reconnected with an uncle & aunt I’d lost touch with a year ago. We traveled up North to spend a few days with my brother & sister-in-law and hung out with my nephew, his wife and their two kids. Being around kids at Christmas is hilarious, and these two are funny, smart and lively. It was a great time truly, but we were both happy to hit the highway and head for home quiet home.

What a great day it was yesterday for a drive, cold and sunny. I sat watching the aspects of the Canadian Shield slip past my window (rocks, lakes, trees, repeat) taking pictures with my phone. It made me curse for the millionth time that moment of inattention back in April that caused me to miss getting up there even for day trips.  Even in the cold of winter, these empty spaces fill me with something I can’t describe, but definitely need.